I think that most of my posts here have been fairly positive. There’s been a few whimpering and whining posts, but overall… the tone is that of an optimist.

I have to admit that I usually don’t post a lot when I’m at the bottom. I don’t think the world understands (though most likely it understands a lot more than I might realize), I don’t want to be a downer, I don’t want to discourage others.

But, I am down.
I have no idea what to do or where to go from here.

I have no income; SSI and VA decisions are a year in the future, and they may not go my way, no matter how deserving I am.

I am not able to hold a job for any length of time, assuming I could get hired to begin with. On call temp jobs seem to have gone the way of so many jobs.

I have $200 left. Total.

How will I survive? How will I keep my truck from being towed because I can’t move it around? How will I pay for internet service, or phone service?

I’m going to be parking in my buddy Sam’s driveway for a few weeks. And hopefully I’ll have something of value that I can sell on Ebay.

But when next semester starts, I don’t know if I’ll be in school again. I think more and more that I won’t be able to do it. I won’t have the gas money.