Reality sets in…

I think I’m starting to accept the reality of the situation. The newness is gone, the basic lessons have started sinking in, and I’m starting to see the changes in my life on a daily basis.

It isn’t quite as frightening as it was a week ago.

I’ve got a few places I can park; I’m learning how to not stock up on food but go into a store once or twice a day to buy just what I need for that meal and then, since I’m a paying customer, take advantage of the restroom facilities.

I’m learning where the open trash bins are so I can drop off my trash. Do this daily btw, a small bag doesn’t draw attention and there isn’t room for a big trash can in my camper anyway.

I’ve started figuring out how to park so that my solar panel can get the sun in the morning before the day gets too hot, and figuring out how much power I can use in the evening.

I’m starting to get my camper organized so that I can actually use it. This requires a lot of purging. But.. one good thing about doing it *in* the camper is that it’s pretty obvious if you really need it or if it can be removed.

I guess any major change in life will take some time and it isn’t reasonable to expect an instant transition to the new circumstances.
I’ve always been pretty demanding of myself, apparently. That’s what people tell me anyway (and then in the next breath they tell me that I’m not demanding *enough* of myself… I get so confused <— sarcasm there).
It is difficult to give myself time to get acquainted with this lifestyle, difficult to allow myself to make the newbie mistakes without becoming furious with myself or those who happen to be the ones pointing out the mistakes, and even more difficult to understand that the people that know me will need time to adjust to the change as well. That last point caught me by surprise.

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  1. It seems like a tremendous amount of overhead, as though the business of getting through each day must inevitably become the chief focus of your life. Do you have leisure set aside?

    On the other hand, many of us spend huge swathes of our “leisure” on nothing in particular, having enough of it that we fail to value it or raise our hands off the keyboard and our butts off the chair to engage with the daily business of living. If grappling with the basics weren’t in some way appealing, very few people would go camping or motorcycling or skiing, and you have the deep engagement of beginning a new project. That’s good for the brain and heart.

    I wish you luck and competence — also caution and care.

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    • Leisure?
      Are homeless people allowed to have leisure time?

      Truthfully, I hadn’t thought about it until you commented about it. You have a good point.
      But I think people find “grappling with the basics” intriguing because they don’t *have* to do it.

      I’m investigating the leisure time thought.. I’ll get back to you sometime in the future about how it goes.

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